I am not able to hold sad feelings that dwell inside, but yet the feeling of love are masked by my already loving personality. to others I seem a flirt, to them its just me. So how can I be upset, jelous mabey, but I never even tried. But I can't help it I always think on what could when I should go with why not. It may be too late for him, but there is someone, someone to hold my hand. Damn these stupid feelings. If I where gay I would not feel them, but alas I am not. But loving the male gender is making me loose sanity. This will be the second time i have cried over a guy.